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honey the codewitch12-Jan-23 18:34
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I worked my elephant off since I was 8 years old perfecting my craft. It took me awhile but I'm no longer afraid to say I'm good at it, maybe even great at it - at least sometimes. Or at least if I listen to people I work with.

When people talk about "what they do" I don't think most mean what I mean. I was born for it. And I trained from a young age. Even without the former, anyone who did the latter would be good at whatever they set out to do by adulthood.

I put my pants on one leg at a time. I'm an idiot in some areas of life, but I specialized. I'm not ashamed of that. I'm glad I did. I think with over 8 billion people out there we could do with a lot of specialists. There's plenty of division of labor to go around.

I love what I do. I've hated it at points past, and even tried to leave the dev field which I did for some years, but it's in my blood and I can't stay away.

And now that I make little machines, it's next leveling everything. So much fun.

I'm blessed, but at the same time I worked insanely hard for a very long time to get to this point.

I still get imposter syndrome, but I've let myself come to believe the above more than superficially.

It's about time, decades in. Unsure | :~ It has just been over the past few years or so with this new spate of work (I wasn't working in the field prior to that, I actually got scouted *here*) that I've really looked at my entire body of work and decided I'm genuinely pleased with the things I make.

I recently had someone I'm working with tell me he's never been as far ahead on a software project as we are now. (I'm the primary on that)

But this is how I work. I frontload everything due to anxiety and then dramatically outperform everyone's estimates, including my own. I can back off, but then it impacts me emotionally having deadlines hanging out there, and I'd have to take a lot more money to make that worth it. Either that or I frontload the work, don't tell anyone, and then feel dishonest doling it out bit by bit. I don't care for that either. What I've found works well, despite the danger in it in terms of people's expectations. Besides, even if I'm "busy" I barely work part time as it is. I work 2 hours a day probably is my average on a standard project, and even I've found, on the project I was initially sweating. I just get a lot done, which is good, because I've otherwise got disabilities that get in the way of me working more than I do.

This field has saved me - allowed me to continue working when the wiring in the walls of my head is so screwy I can't even interview anymore. Software development might be the great equalizer. I have some serious mental health conditions, and If you knew my educational background it would probably surprise you. Yet here I am, not just able to function, but to excel at what I do. I am so grateful.

Anyway, maybe I'll start estimating better now that I see myself more clearly in terms of development, but I like being ahead of the game, and I prefer being underestimated to overestimated, even when I'm the one doing it.

I'm not saying any of this to brag. In fact I feel somewhat uncomfortable writing it, but I'm just being honest. Sigh | :sigh:
To err is human. Fortune favors the monsters.

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