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To be different isn't make you worst (or better for that matter). It is your deeds that will define you!
And yours seems to be remarkable!
"The only place where Success comes before Work is in the dictionary." Vidal Sassoon, 1928 - 2012
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honey the codewitch wrote: I am a shut in on account of paranoia and extreme social anxiety that has afflicted me since. I had a close friend visit a few days ago and stay the night, and despite the fact that I love her to death I ended up crying because I couldn't handle having her here, but still wanted her here. It's not supposed to make sense - it's crazy.
My partner is the only one who doesn't cause me to melt down, so with him not being here I'm pretty lonely.
We are creatures of habit. Try to get me to change my habits, and I'll desperately be looking forward to go back to my normal routine.
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Keep on chooglin. 
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Your partner must be awesome, because it doesn't even sound like bragging.
honey the codewitch wrote: despite the fact that I love her to death I ended up crying because I couldn't handle having her here
A stranger, in your safe space. My guests stay at a nearby hotel. That way they have privacy and don't open my fridge.
Bastard Programmer from Hell 
"If you just follow the bacon Eddy, wherever it leads you, then you won't have to think about politics." -- Some Bell.
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I mean, I grew up with that friend, so she's no stranger.
My partner *is* awesome. I met him when I was 17 and we were friends for like 11 years before we ever got together romantically. It works for us. We know all of our quirks and we care about each other in a way I'm not sure we could if we hadn't had that friendship prior.
I'm blessed. 
Real programmers use butterflies
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honey the codewitch wrote: I mean, I grew up with that friend, so she's no stranger.
A stranger meaning an outsider.
honey the codewitch wrote: I'm blessed.
Maybe you simply deserve it.
Bastard Programmer from Hell
"If you just follow the bacon Eddy, wherever it leads you, then you won't have to think about politics." -- Some Bell.
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Big hugs.
That stuff's not fun or easy to deal with. My partner in crime has been taking anti-psychotics for most of the 13 years I've known her. I've suffered debilitating social-anxiety for about 25 years, just like she has. At times, life's only bearable when we're together. At others - it's the worst it bloody well can be. It's mind-numbing how the human mind works (or doesn't!).  
Something too seems to have flipped inside me during this bat-flu soup bullsh1t. I think someone's stolen the fuze (fuse works too, I suppose) from my "give a flying elephant" circuit. But I can't pinpoint what the trigger was - just that it's happened during this last 18 months.
I'm not writing code for money any more. I'd be honest and say I don't miss it - but that entirely glosses over the reality of my days. They're a million, billion times more fulfilling. (and frightening!) I hardly have the time to think about that life any more. I'm too busy providing support to people with disabilities. Too busy keeping away the voices in their heads, too busy with their shopping, mental retraining, gardening and other tasks we all need to accomplish to live a life that doesn't snow-ball.
Hope your saviour's home soon and everything can return to (ab)normal. Hope you're okay.
('nother big hug)
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From someone who is disgustingly normal I do admire the quality and volume of your production and you seem to be coping with your negatives. And while I don't always read all your tech babble (consider the source of that statement) I did read all of this missive. So if you need a rubber duck (remote only) feel free to use us if it will help.
Never underestimate the power of human stupidity -
RAH
I'm old. I know stuff - JSOP
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Thanks for sharing.
Keep on posting.
“quack”
“Duck” was one of my monikers two decades past.
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Have I ever told you how much I loathe our ISP? 
insular phony going places (7)
modified 28-Jul-21 6:27am.
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Urinals - nice clue to
"I didn't mention the bats - he'd see them soon enough" - Hunter S Thompson - RIP
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I thought of URINALS - but missed the anagram completely and couldn't justify it ... was trying to fit THRONES in there!
"I have no idea what I did, but I'm taking full credit for it." - ThisOldTony
"Common sense is so rare these days, it should be classified as a super power" - Random T-shirt
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It was the going places - don't know why but it leapt out - you were on the right track with thrones though 
"I didn't mention the bats - he'd see them soon enough" - Hunter S Thompson - RIP
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@GregUtas
Where's the CCC?
"I have no idea what I did, but I'm taking full credit for it." - ThisOldTony
"Common sense is so rare these days, it should be classified as a super power" - Random T-shirt
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I think its always 11.30 with Greg now
"I didn't mention the bats - he'd see them soon enough" - Hunter S Thompson - RIP
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Yeah, but if we start making special cases for people you'll be 18:00 before we know it ...
"I have no idea what I did, but I'm taking full credit for it." - ThisOldTony
"Common sense is so rare these days, it should be classified as a super power" - Random T-shirt
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I must admit I like the 9am BST - but I would 
"I didn't mention the bats - he'd see them soon enough" - Hunter S Thompson - RIP
modified 28-Jul-21 5:49am.
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When I went to design my epub reader I tried to make it dual mode, such that it could operate in low memory conditions, like with 300kB available albeit more slowly.
I did this by streaming everything from files, including fonts, zip files, markup and images, thus avoiding RAM allocations, while using the 4MB of extended RAM when available by loading the files I was streaming into RAM and then using the same code to stream from them, since seeks are virtually instant and reads are really fast compared to file streams.
So for example, on a WROOM I extract EPUB zip content by reading directly from the file, but if I'm on a WROVER with 4MB of RAM I can load the EPUB/zip into memory and then quickly extract from it.
I made this design decision and took on the inherent risk that it wouldn't get me the necessary performance gain before I wrote the first line of code.
I've been sweating bullets hoping it would meet my requirements and thus not relegate the entire project to the dustbin.
It works. My hypothesis held. I am so relieved right now.
Real programmers use butterflies
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Unlimited Power!
Streams are great! 
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Fortune favours the brave - well done
"I didn't mention the bats - he'd see them soon enough" - Hunter S Thompson - RIP
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Congratulations 
M.D.V. 
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